Vision, brand and market what exactly?

I woke up this morning with the idea that my "one thing" is me. It isn't writing, acting, comedy, sports, counseling, spirituality, dream analysis, teaching or any other path I can think of. It is me.

Not too long ago, while I was struggling with motivation to write, a friend suggested I read Gary Keller's book, The One Thing. Not long before that, I read a book, title and author forgotten, about how the rich live and think versus those of us with "poor" thinking. Not long before that I read Finding Your Own North Star: Claiming the Life You Were Meant to Live by Martha N. Beck. (I did like Beck's book). Before that I'm sure I read something else meant to move me from a state of what feels like helpless indecision to a state with clear vision and goals and activity and manifestation and everlasting joy, including a healthy income.

The One Thing was meant to clear up the clutter and make room for me to focus! The problem is...I don't have ONE THING. Okay, so that's not what Keller means, right? He doesn't mean that we don't have multiple interests and endeavors. But he does suggest that there is ONE that we can identify and give the most of our time to.

For me, frustration ensued after reading that book, because no matter my best intentions, I cannot. I thought I could if I just fell in love with the ONE THING enough. What am I the most passionate about? What can I get so lost in (an activity) that all of time flies by? These are the questions that all the books I have read ask. And let me say, I can't think of one activity where that is the case for me. What I'm left with is a sense of frustration and despair and I think maybe I don't have any real passion. I see people with that kind of passion, many of whom were born with it. And I can't tell you how jealous it makes me.

So, then it becomes about finding what is blocking me from accessing that passion that I know is there, somewhere. Right? So far, working The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron, has come the closest to unearthing hidden interests, but nevertheless I remain as distracted by the multitude of paths I "could" take and how much time and energy becoming successful in any ONE would take.

Even as I write this blog post, I'm growing weary of following this train of thought, because there are fighting thoughts working their way in and my attention span is short, often compared to the lifespan of a flea.

What I would like, more than anything, is to be let off the hook for being able to clearly see a vision for myself, who and what I want to be and what it is I want to do, before I can brand, market and manifest, ie. thrive. What I am saying here is that the only ONE thing I am the most passionate about is me. It's the ONE thing I've invested the most time in through countless inventories of my assets and liabilities, self-exploration through journaling and talking to trust-worthy friends. It is the ONE thing that is present whether I'm typing away on my computer or engaged in a lively conversation with friends.

I'm mildly ashamed to admit that my recent adventures have been about discovering more of what it's like to be me, much like in mediation where it's about observing that which I identify as "me" while tapping into the power that is not just my personality. I'm not sure how my uncertainty and non-goal oriented life will help others, but it is becoming apparent that an element that drives me is sharing my journey (overused word) with anyone who will listen. So please, share back with me, for as my psychologist friend, Dr. Ingrid Mathieu, posted as her word-of-the-day on her Facebook page this morning: Mirror. (https://www.facebook.com/pages/Ingrid-Mathieu-PhD/194198467283685)

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We are in this together, as a mirror.

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